| | What have I been doing with my life?
After reading a xanga post of a good friend of mine, it has put me at a loss for words. I am such a fallen sinner. I've been wasting my time procrastinating, on the computer, engaging in worldly conversations, and lacking the church life for so, soooo long. Yet, I got good grades in school, received quite some attention from friends at school, and life was just too swell...all in such a secular sense. But this entire time, this entire time, I lacked the Lord. I felt nothing. No joy, no genuine feelings of happiness. It was all so fake. Yet, what disgusts me the most is how I enjoyed it, how I was so satisfied with myself, and how I didn't yearn for the Lord like I used to, how I never came to Him throughout the day, how I lived life so independently through my mind instead of my spirit, how I gave in to my soulish pleasures instead of putting the Lord at the head of all things in my life. How could I have gone on for so long like this?? I now make a quick reference to my friend's post: I want to be broken. I don't want to live the life that so many people crave for - the life of attention and of good grades. Lord, take it away and bring me back to You.
Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from Thy presence; Take not Thy holy Spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation; And renew a right spirit within me.
The more I think about it, the more I believe that God wrote that post for me, wanted to bring me back to Him. He knew I'd see it, knew I'd read it and it'd open my eyes to reveal my sinful, shameful being.
It's been too long, Lord. Just bring me back to You.
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| | Posted 5/19/2008 5:46 PM - 43 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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